My anxiety has taken a not-so-welcomed stay lately and I have a feeling it wont be leaving anytime soon...
I'm not sure if it's the Haiti tragedy, the failed American health-care system, President Obama's slipping popularity, or my personal issues with the unemployment status in the state of Oregon. But, I think we all, myself especially, could use a dose of encouragement--and soon.
These past few weeks have been a true test of my character--and patience... I might add. I have felt many emotions: excited, ambitious, positive, disappointed, confused, regretful, TIRED, and overwhelmed with anxiety about the fate of my professional future.
Did you lose my address?
Do you believe in signs? As in good-luck signs?
Last Friday night, while I was sitting at home, marinating in my anxiety and disappointing disposition, I tuned in to the final 'Tonight Show' with Conan O'Brien on NBC. It was funny, as usual, but the best part was the comedian's profound, heart-felt words to his viewers and NBC at the conclusion of his show. The politics involving late-night talk shows, lately, has been quite controversial--so, as you can imagine, a message of this kind, spoke volumes of his character.
Last week, O'Brien (who recently admitted having 'the best job in the world') allegedly walked away from the network after they reportedly cut his job out from under him. But, in the final moments of his show, he said something that I believe is worth repeating.
"And finally, I have to say something to our fans. The massive outpouring of support and passion from so many people has been overwhelming. The rallies, the signs, all the goofy, outrageous creativity on the internet, and the fact that people have traveled long distances and camped out all night in the pouring rain to be in our audience, made a sad situation joyous and inspirational.
To all the young people watching, I can never thank you enough for your kindness to me and I'll think about it for the rest of my life. All I ask of you is one thing: please don't be cynical. I hate cynicism -- it's my least favorite quality and it doesn't lead anywhere.
Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen, I promise you."
And so--have you ever experienced anything like this?
When you feel like someone is speaking directly to you?
I mean...It very well may have been my silly imagination, because it has certainly misled me before...
But I like to think that last Friday night, when I was at home in my flannel pajamas, searching Craigslist and internet job postings for some more opportunity-- Conan O'Brien spoke to me. His works gave me some peace and sense of encouragement, when I needed it the most.
I woke up Saturday morning feeling like maybe, if I keep thinking positively and working hard for what I want, maybe...good things will happen to me too.
Maybe opportunity could finally come knocking at my door...?